“We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed. We are perplexed, but not driven to despair.”
2 Corinthians 4:8
I cannot begin to name all the reasons that has kept me from posting for over 3 months. I cannot begin to count the many battles fought, lost, and fought again till won to be here in this present hour. But to God be the glory who fights our battles even when we are too stubborn to let go of the reins.
Despair is defined as the complete loss or absence of hope.
For any believer to find themselves in a place of despair is nothing to joke about or skid over. It is serious business when you reach a place in your journey, a time in your life, a realm in your walk of faith, that dares you to look God in the eyes and say that you do not believe the promise anymore.
I don’t know about you but for me, to despair feels like an agonizing breach of contract with God. It is a state of mind that abruptly rips apart the intimacy between me and God because I confess that I no longer have confidence in what God said to me.
I was in that place these past few days and I am still recovering from the war it was to fight back the strongholds that tried to keep me there.
It honestly began with a subtle disappointment. Then that disappointment reminded me of another disappointment over the same promise, then another fell in line, and then another, and before I knew it, I was immobile in my house under the heavy weight of despair.
See the thing about hoping on the word of God is that it necessitates expectation. Hope stirs up in you a distinct level of expectation from God where you look for the promise everywhere, every-time. Hope will do that to you.
Hope will have you stretching all your limitations and believing in God for an unseen type of miracle.
But what happens when your hope starts to feel the weight of waiting???
